buhsan!!

5 more days before the beginning of final exam for 2nd phase of usm medical student life!!

scary??
perhaps..
indeed it is
its been a month of 'berkurung' in a nest, studying your head out to remember all the fact..
the point is.. till when do you want them to last
is it just for the examination
or
you want to remember it your whole life??
as a medical student, of course you hope you will remember those tiny details forever
perhaps forever and ever
Insya Allah, we can, if we try..
but..
there is always a but right
what if we forget
is it the end of our life??
are we going to jeopardize patients condition just because we forget??
hmm.....
the fact is, we just memorize
do we understand what we read??
if we understand it, why does we still forget
or if we memorize it without understanding.. is it still okay??

wutever..
the s**t i wrote was never has any association..
just random words put together with bad grammar without any meaningful fact

!WeiRD!

just a picture

swimming class!!

venue : splash, kelantan
time : every thursday ... NIGHT!!!
program : swimming class
things to learn : breathing + hand + leg coordination
now : trying to master the breaststroke!!

may and q mie's birhtday!!!

guess what.. its may and ummi's birthday ..
yep.. they celebrate it on the same day!!.. 16th march....
happy burfday to both of them
hope they got what they wish for this year.. insya Allah!!

something had inspired me to write..

me + medical

my dream to become a doctor started back then when i am at school.. when ever new teacher came into the class, we are obligate to tell our name and our dream job..

what do you want to become when you grow up??

-this is a standard question ask by teacher to a childish kid who know nothing about real life all about..-

in my head, i always thought (back then) to give the simplest answer back.. the safest so that the 'new' teacher wont ask me anything back like..
why??

so my answer will always be
- a doctor-
in such a young age, with no knowledge bout medical life, i always knew i want to become a doctor..but if you ask me why back then, i might not be able to give you the reason..

when spm ended, matrix ended, and miraculously, i got a distinction result, i receive a power to choose..
what do i want to do??
a good result mean that i can do what ever i want.. right..
perhaps..
so, i with all my pride click medical school as my choice..
everything like so easy for me.. i had the easy pathway..

not like others..
they have to struggle.. but i like to listen how they struggle since i struggle less..
when things are not beautifully laid out in front of you, you have to work harder.. better.. more..
and that is the beauty in it..
the challenge you face in order to succeed
that what make you strong.. that what make you special..
i was given a gift back then
i thank god for it.. alhamdulillah
with a mere chance i got what i want..

so, right now, as i am facing the most vital exam in my medical years.. i come across this question again..
why do i want to become a doctor???
can i?? will i be a good doctor with a few medical knowledge i had?
i dont know..
i dont think that i will ever know the answer..
i am not yet there..
i wish i am..
but..can i?

hmm, a question with no definitive answer..
tricky!!

i guess i am not that smart like other people.. not that rajin too..
the things i have to demolished to become a new me

surprise!!

a surprise gift to my kakteh.. she is turning 18 on 9th of march this year.. haha dah tua..
hope she had a fabulous year this year..
since on 12th of march which is 3 days after her birthday, her 'SPM' result will be revealed!!! muahahaha.....(evil laugh)..
the best of luck to her.. hope she get what she aimed for..

my 'crazy' kakteh

23rd - 25th feb.. my lil sister came down to kelantan to visit two of her loveliest bigger sister..
had loads of fun except during the day since it rainin' all day long