most of the thing i post talk about how pathetic my life is.. well, when i think about it, the more i wrote in this blog the more i realize that i had been whining all my life.. everything is not perfect, everything is wrong, nothing seem to be on my way.. it just like i choose a pathway that is totally off from the straight pathway i should be taken.. hurm,,

i know what is wrong with me.. ME! i am what is broken here,, ME, ME, ME well more ME..

i am not going to stop here, i need to have a START.. A beginning, a fresh start..

but hOW??

i already screw a part of it!

talk to somebody who are more experience?

but WHO??

who do i trust?? hurm,, i dont trust anybody.. i dont.. maybe that what is wrong with me.. TRUST.. i need to trust people so i can be more open to them, right? of course, but WHERE to start.. WHEN to begin? WHo to ask??

lotsa question to be asked.. not sure where to get the answer..

start NOW, i know it already.. but how?? a question that leads to more question..

a twisted misery of mind.. i think i am crazy.