when you think something, you felt something down your stomach, you can really tell what you are feeling, it felt good, it felt bad.. all the feeling in the world being blend together.. your stomach turn and twist, you are nauseated by it, you try to vomit it all out, but it stuck.. stuck down your throat.. you dont know what to do, you try to smile, but all you can do is crack your lips.. those feeling that you can feel but you are not sure how to describe them.. you know what i meant??
ive been having those feeling nowadays.. dont know why, but i do..
there is emptiness inside me that i need to fill.. but i dont know what to fill in.. am i crazy for saying all this, for questioning all this..
those ample space in my life are left without anything to be stuck with,, what the hell am i searching?? what the hell am i thinking?? what the hell???
searching for my soul? i want to do things that i like. but the crazy thing is, i dont know what i like.. i always thought that if you are doing the thing you love, you wont be working for whole of your life.. i cant still able to find that thing i love to do.. i guess i will be working the whole of my life..
HELP!! i want to love what i do.. now, i dont think i like what i do.. why?? am i not passionate enough?? i think i am not.. how to be passionate.. what if when i know what i love, it will be too late.. i am in this thing too deep and now i cant change, i cant move, im stuck?
stuck and static.. what kind a life am i leading here??
i need help desperately.. i dont think i can help myself.. i need somebody, anybody to listen and give me opinion what to do with my life..
how to live a life?? what do i want in this short life?? what!!!!?????
how to start fresh?? i am a wreck right now.